I can't do this anymore. I don't know who to talk to. I miss you so much Collin. I have nobody. You were the person that understood me. Its been months and I still can't believe your gone. I still feel you here with me. I'm in so much pain and it won't go away. I've done so much to make myself numb but it doesn't work anymore. The memories won't fade and I can't keep these thoughts of dying out of my head. I've tried to take control of my life again but I can't. Why is this so hard? I know your in a better place but I need your touch. I need to hear your voice again. Save me